Act 2 - Redundancy

"You like that, too? I thought I was the only one!"

As I sat with friends, bored, while they played their video games I usually join them in, I finally couldn't take it anymore and left without a word back to my house. I cleaned just near the foot of my bed where I haven't touched in a year and a half - since I had left for college. Among other things, I found tennis rackets (I need to play more!), love notes (bleh. burned), and my notes from my Existentialism class. Nothing amazing, but it felt really good to clean that area up; tomorrow shall be the rest.
I'm just one of those people that loves it to be clean and orderly around him to work well. Yet.. I'm scared of cleaning too much and it becoming sterile and suffocating in the opposite way. I'm weird like that, haha.

I guess today was just the physical marking of my new attitude on life I'm finding out slowly. No need to plan it out; when you feel it is time, you just have to go for it.


(The picture is Spring/Summer meeting Fall/Winter. It's not my own, nor do I know whose it is.. but I really like the details of decay and life on the creatures around, hah. Thought I'd share.)

Act 1 - Trips

I suck at these and am trying my very hardest to not spend HOURS on a single post and simply type what I'm thinking right away, ha. That said, this is the first of hopefully many posts on the days of my life and how I see them.

I guess all I really ask of you, the reader, is patience in these ramblings as I grow up and get closer to becoming who I feel I am somewhere deep down. My nature is to be ambivalent, but my stubbornness forces my apathy - my emotions are therefore either exaggerated to make me choose one or subdued into moments of "whatever's".
And.. that's all the back story I'll be giving. ;) This blog isn't meant to be focused on the past, but rather on the present in an attempt to-- heh, the first instance of me talking too much about something in here.

Well.. let's go!
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And it started one ordinary day with a "Hello". . .

Several days ago I went on a trip with other people I knew. It was amazing! ha. In fact, it was all I could talk about for a couple days, even though I tried not to since I knew people who didn't go wouldn't care too much to continually hear about it. But.. something happened on that trip which gave me this feeling of protection that only comes through self-acceptance (or something along those lines). I felt so free! haha. Free to be me, the real me, and was such without any strenuous looking and searching.

I love those people. /bow Very much. They are those friends you find once in a lifetime. As a group, it clicked perfectly. Yet, as individuals, they are still entirely unique. I won't pick anyone out specifically to speak more of, out of respect for the whole group, just...

It was fun. :) And I miss them.